2011 - An year of....

             2011 is an year of twists and turns – started with excitement, crossed disappointments, ended-up with few achievements. Its more of an year tested my composure/poise. For, it carried moments of joy, grief, dismay, anger, pain, emotion, belief and even disbelief. But, the major part accounts to excitement and disappointment.

However, like every dark cloud has a Silver lining, I could fare well professionally, by the end. Though, on my personal front, there is nothing much, but, realization of some incredible truths about the people and their attitudes in general.

 For a whilst - about 6 months, everything was a stand-still, void – seeing me nowhere in the neighbourhood of my aspirations vying out for some unpractical things, worrying for the Concerns and their governance that later tuned and turned me to more Spirituality. I appreciate for being so as it revealed how dedicated I can be, for the things my conscience directs to and for the Spiritual practices I made in the process. Be it a traditional/conventional worshipping (puja) or like a musical offering, I derive greater pleasure out of it. It helped me maintaining emotional balance as I see all kinds of people living their sufferings, highs and lows, while travelling a long distance (as far as 38+38 km to and fro a day) for my work daily.

Here is an incident to disclose in this aid.....a quick one....
We got to take a different route due to traffic diversion. Unlike the well-managed road I travel daily, we got to pass by a small lane loaded with slums only to see few kids bathing on the roads with a RIN soap (I say as the lather tells it is a detergent soap). I felt that Everyone is busy with their life, so is the POOR and the POVERTY !! I have no words for those kids, the so called “TOMORROW’s CITIZENS” !! :( :(

Ahh! painful and those were the moments that caught a pause, a void.

Hmm, back to my space, what might be the sort of aspirations you have, all you have to do is to acquire knowledge, improve your skill-set and execute it wisely. I started some in the lines of my passionate things like car-driving, music and of-course my fav. subject Finance(Stocks/Bonds/Securities so on) and could gain better learning, skills and understanding of the respects.

On the other hand, there were few situations that (effortlessly) revealed the nature, the extent a human-psychology can be. Nevertheless, it reminded us telling that human relations are very sensitive and are effective of personal conclusions/perceptions and one should give a thought to the entire context of the happening before arriving at any critical decisions.

Throughout the year, I observed that there is no harm if you are kind and considerate, able to forgive, can be bold, expressing/sharing your views or concerns to others. But, above all, being PRACTICAL is the order of the day. And that is the space everyone should occupy, signing off any presumptions, superficial or impractical things. Altogether, 2011 is an year of cocktail owing to certain observations, experiences, learning and the subtleties that left me with more challenges!!

The Wrath of TIME/Destiny ?!

                      Its the Saturday morning and as usual holding a cup of coffee in my hand, I picked the newspaper and read an article unlike every morning, I start with funny cartoons. For a moment, I left everything I had in my hand, holding the newspaper more firmly to re-confirm what I read.

Yes, its real and a heartbreaking incident took place in Wellington !

Here goes the article titled -

Girl, 3, survives home alone for 2 days after mom dies
 A 3-year-old girl, alone for two days after her mother died unexpectedly in their New Zealand home, lived on cheese, leftover lasagna and milk and comforted herself with her teddy bear.

The girl's uncle, Pete Silbery, said that the family last spoke to the mother, Lauren Silbery, on October 19.

Shylah Silbery

Two days later, they were worried enough to call a friend who lived near the 28-year-old's Wellington home. The friend could see Lauren's daughter, Shylah, inside the home, but not the mother, prompting the family to call police, Pete Silbery said. Police coaxed Shylah to drag a coffee table to the door so she could reach the lock and unlock the door, before she told them, "Mummy won't wake up," Silbery said. "I can only imagine her in there for that long, trying to wake mum up as well," he said.

Silbery said Shylah endured the two days alone by finding food in the refrigerator and holding her teddy bear, named 'Possum'. Shylah spent several days in a hospital recovering from dehydration and diaper rash. "She's doing OK now. She's still bubbly," he said. "When we lowered the coffin into the grave at the cemetery, though, she pointed at it and said, 'Mummy's in there'. It was pretty heartbreaking."

Its really heartbreaking and I dedicate my blog to her,
  to the sufferers of the kind,
  for whom life is not served on a Silver platter,
  for the victims of  the Wrath of Time/Destiny... !! :( :(

Be UNREPENTANT - The Ultimate Goal of [MY] Life

             It could be tough sometimes, to switch from the cool, routine, not much planned life to a very formal, disciplined, methodical life following/base-lining few rules imposed by ourselves. As the maturity grows, we realize that for any act we do, the real happiness lies when we are in a position that we look back and don't REPENT.[Because, for me a repent is so horrible that we can only avoid happening such in future and cannot be devoid of what we have done in the past]

Yes, I believe and want to move ahead "Leading a life that is unrepented" from which I seek the real pleasure (Sorry, 'unrepented' - may be out-of-vocab, I couldn't stop using the word for the liner) .To err is human. And so, I accept the mistakes, repent/regret for moments together and try my best to correct it giving justified number of attempts for it. But, it doesn't end there. Learning the lesson out of it is much more important before drawing to such actions further more in my journey.

For that matter, I have to appreciate my dearest friend Srilakshmi Mukkavilli for her note that reads as:

 I know only two things -  I know that I don't know,   I know how to learn. 

Heads I WIN. Tails I LEARN

It impressed me in a great way. It indicates that, there is no concept of failure and is just an illusion termed in a negative sense, created out of the obsession for that successful position/result. The bottom line is, for any course of your actions/efforts, you either be a WINNER or a LEARNER and never be a loser.

Minute are the feelings/hypothetical conclusions/assumptions we make, but they have a greater impact on how we look at the things, build the self and evolve as a gentle and humble person. Usually, the human mind is pre-occupied with negative energy (thoughts/ emotions /perceptions/ conclusions/ impressions) and only THE ABLE can come out of it ruling the self and see themselves filled with joy.

Repents, usually caused when we don't plan or we are dependent in taking decisions while we plan, not foreseeing the consequences. Yes, one should be able to get their conscience out of all egos, question it in multiple ways and different directions,  churn-out  the thoughts adding practicality to it, then arrive at a conclusion (explaining the real value of it to others,  if needed). 

In other words, take the ownership of all your actions, be a master while making the decision and obey it as a humble follower(Master-Slave, for me slave is deprecated!). In-fact, the conscience is ego-proof and it always speaks the truth. So, realizing or ignoring it is at our discretion. 

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